Friday, August 31, 2012


Why do I always feel like running the night before my morning run?  Here I am sitting on the couch watching a tv show with Jon thinking about how I can't wait to go running in the morning.  Of course, most likely come morning I will roll over and moan about not wanting to get up.  Very rarely do I wake up still having those same exciting thoughts about running.  I really do hope that tomorrow I wake up that way, I haven't run all week and I would love to get in one good run this week.  Maybe finish a 3k, why a 3k?  Well, because my sister in law and I signed up to run a 3k on October 7th.  My sister in law has been having some trouble with her leg during our couch potatoe to 5k training and she was getting really nervous about running our A Mountain 5k.  So when my friend Linette sent me an invite to join her works team at the Jim Click Run & Roll event I invited my sister in law.  I had a feeling that this race might be a better starter race for us.  It is a flat course and a shorter race, being only a 3k instead of a 5k.  My sis in law was so excited about the change that we registered right away so there was no backing out.  I am excited.  I am happy to start with a 3k over a 5k, not that it makes a huge difference for me for nerves since I am running the 3k on October 7, then running the 5k portion of a triathlon on October 14.  I know, my first races ever and they are a week apart, I am probably crazy.  But I am really looking forward to it!!!
Want to try out a race?  Come join us at the Jim Click Run & Roll.  

Still feel yucky

I still feel yucky but I got my hair done today. I love getting my hair done, it makes me feel so girly and since I never do my hair myself, having four kids really takes up my get ready time in the mornings, it is a nice mood booster. I have been feeling down since being sick and unable to go running. My whole body is exhausted. And I am so ready to get back to running. I want my energy back, I want my "me time" morning runs back. I miss it. I am going to try to run tomorrow whether I feel better or not. Hope everyone is feeling great today.

A big thank you to my amazingly talented friend, Jordan, for cutting and styling my hair today!

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Half a dozen donuts

My oldest turned seven today, I can't believe it.  I feel like it was yesterday when we brought him home to our tiny apartment.  He was the best baby in the entire world and we were so excited.  Today he is the best son, older brother, second grader, swimmer, soccer player, friend... the list could go on and on.  He is such an amazing kid.  He has such a caring heart.  We love him so much and am so glad that God put him into our family.  I want him to stay young forever but at the same time I can't wait to see the young man he is going to become. 
Happy Birthday!

This picture was taken on our annual camping trip to celebrate his birthday.  We always have alot of fun on this trip, we invite all of our friends and always end up with a great crowd. 
Tradition in our family is to have donuts, I know that they are really spelled doughnuts but since we always buy from Dunkin Donuts I spell them that way.  Anyway, so our tradition is to have donuts for breakfast on the kids birthdays.  They LOVE donuts and so do I.  That is why the tradition started, because I LOVE donuts and could eat at least half a dozen in one sitting.  I had to limit myself somehow or I might have made the tradition to have donuts every Sunday morning which would have been bad.  I was very proud of myself today, I only had two donuts, this is major!  And guess what else, I didn't finish off the donut remnants from the kids.  I know that sounds disgusting to some people but I seriously have a problem when it comes to donuts so if there is frosting left on the kids donuts I will totally finish it for them.  And I didn't today, I just threw them away. I am so impressed with myself, maybe I should reward myself with donuts.   Ha ha, just kidding!

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

stupid cold & Wednesday: weigh in day

I have got a stupid cold.  I hate being sick.  I think that if you are a mother with small children you shouldn't be able to get sick.  It is just cruel.  Here I am feeling like crud and the kids of course feel fine.  How am I supposed to rest and get better when I still have four little ones who need me.  Seriously unfair. 
Ok, I am done whining. 
Today is Wednesday, weigh in day, but I am not weighing in.  I am taking a week to be sick.  I haven't felt good since Monday.  I went for a run Monday but didn't make it very far cause I just felt crummy.  I haven't made it since then.  I don't feel good.  I am hoping this week goes by quickly and I get back to feeling good.  My family and my house sure takes a hit when I am sick.  Ugh. 

Friday, August 24, 2012

Treading water

This morning I was reminded of my days training to be a lifegaurd.  I treaded water for at least thirty minutes waiting for my little girlie to jump and swim to me over and over again. It was so much fun just me and her, and boy was it a workout. We swam together for 45 minutes, she was adorable and is turning into a great swimmer. I think that she will be swimming all over the place by herself next summer.

Isn't she a cutie?!

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Wednesday: weigh in day

It is weigh in day again. 
 It always surprises me how quickly the week goes by.  It was a good week, our family is back into the rhythm of school life, things are good. 
So lets get to it, I weigh in this week at 179 pounds, yep, I didn't loose any but didn't gain any either.  I can't call this week a good week but it definitely wasn't bad either.  I'll take it, I'd rather stay the same then gain weight.  Hopefully next week will be better. 
Oh, I weighed in over at Roni's weigh again.  Go check out her page!

Cinnamon rolls...

Why did I do it?  Why did I go to Costco hungry?  I know that is always a bad plan and yet I still went.  So what did we end up buying?  Cinnamon rolls, yummy, sticky cinnamon rolls!  They are amazing and I can't stop myself from eating them.  Does anyone else ever think if we eat them all in one day then at least they wont be around for you to mess up and eat again another day?  No, just me.  Great.  Well, I think that way, I don't know why but I do.  So what have I been eating pretty much all day today?  Yep, eating cinnamon rolls.  It makes me feel so beaten down, like I am failing.  But I can't stop myself, I love the way they taste.  I wish I was one of those girls who could just tell themselves, once on the lips forever on the hips.  Ugh.  

Friday, August 17, 2012

My new pink sports bra

Am I the only one who gets motivated by their workout clothing? 

Buying new workout clothes always makes me really excited to excersize.  I don't know what it is but there is just something great about having cute clothes to excersize in.  And my new pink sports bra is no different.  I love it!  I love the way the pink pops out from underneath whatever shirt I am wearing, I love how bright it is, I just love it! 

Please excuse the sweatiness of this picture I had just completed my morning run but see how cute the little bit of hot pink popping out from under my tank top.  I love it.

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Wednesday: weigh in day

I can't believe that it is Wednesday again.  But it is and that means that it is weigh in day.  I was really not looking forward to weighing in today.  I haven't been eating as healthy as I should be this week and I had slacked with the running until yesterday.  So when I weighed in at a pound more then last week I wasn't all that surprised, bummed but not surprised.  I really need to step it up in the eating department.  I just love chunk food, I love it!  I wish that I didn't but I do.  And I crave it, I know once I start eating healthy again my cravings slow but it is that initial step that is hard for me.  I'm not sure the world would go on without ice cream. 

Anyway, I am weighing in today at 179, up from last week but still down I guess. 

Oh, I am weighing in over on Roni's weigh also, ya know, the whole accountability thing, maybe if I put my weight and goal out there it will help.  You should go check out her blogs.  

Not good

My brain won today. 

It happened again, that voice was telling me that I couldn't do it, I couldn't complete my 8 minute running set and I let myself fall for it.  Just for a little while but then I realized that I wasn't tired, well I was, but I was just as tired walking as I was running so why not run.  I made myself finish the distance that I would have completed in my 8 minute set even though the timer on my watch had gone off. 

I don't know why I fall for it, believe that little bit of doubt in my mind that I can't do it.  I can do it.  I can finish my sets.  I will do it.  I'm not going to say that I will never listen to the voice of doubt again, that I will always keep going, but I am going to try, try to squash my doubt and keep going.  

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

I'm back on board...

the running train that is. 

It was hard getting up but I did it.  And I was SO glad that I did.  It amazes me how fast I forget the beauty of the morning sky and the sweetness of the fresh morning air.  I LOVE being out early in the morning.  It is so refreshing, yet somehow when it is time to wake up I completely forget about all of the beauty that I get to experience while running outside.  If I continue on a daily basis I do better, the glory of the morning slowly engraves itself into my mind and I look forward to getting up early and spending time by myself, running, praying, thinking.  But miss one morning and it is like the memory is wiped away and it takes way more effort to get myself up and out.  Then when I finally make it happen I want to kick myself because I had forgotten all of the splendor of the early morning.  And yet, I find myself repeating this scenario over and over again.  I should make it one of my goals to not fall off the train (the running train).  To somehow remember how much I love it.   

I had a great run this morning.  Like I mentioned in my last post I have to make up for last weeks training schedule by completing last weeks first then starting this weeks.  Which means no slacking.  This morning was the first run from the week I missed,  it was run 5 minutes, walk 3 min, run 5 min, walk 3 min, run 5 min.  I was impressed with how well I did.  Until now 5 minutes was the longest I had run nonstop and today's run was easy.  I found myself wanting to stop during the last 5 minute run but I didn't have a reason for it, it was like my brain thought that I should be tired so I needed to stop but when I really thought about it I wasn't hurting anywhere, I just needed to keep going.  It is strange that my own subconscious attempts to stop me, I guess I need to somehow reset my body.  I wonder if after I complete the 9 week training that my mind will stop telling my body it is tired when it isn't.  

Monday, August 13, 2012

Enough is enough

I have been home since last Wednesday and I still have not gotten in one workout. 

 Enough is enough.

This trend ends today. 

 I will go running. 

And tomorrow I will go running again. 

I have no excuses.  The big kids are at school, I am home with two little ones.  There is no reason that I don't drive to the gym, put them in the nursery, and have my me time while running.  I am letting a busy afternoon schedule and the heat convince me that I can wait until tomorrow.  But tomorrow will be just as hot and most likely just as busy.

No more procrastinating.

I have goals to meet and a 5k to train for.  I need to get back to business.  I skipped last week so I plan on fitting in both last week and this weeks 5k training schedule in.  I can do it.  I know I can.

Watch me. 

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Back to school

Back to the grind today.  The big kids started school this morning.  I thought that it would be easier dropping of my second born child at kindergarten but I was just as torn up about it as I was when I dropped my first born.  They are growing up so fast.  I can't wait to hear how school was. 

Here are the cuties waiting for the gates to open at school

Onto the subject of exercising.  I am seriously lacking in the motivation department which is silly since I was super motivated yesterday after my 3 pound weight loss. 

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Wednesday: weigh in day

It happened!!  I lost 3 pounds!  I am weighing in this week at 178.  I am so happy the scale is finally moving down.  I feel like I have been stuck between 181 and 183 forever.  I couldn't believe my eyes when the scale said 178, especially because we had been out of town all week and I didn't go for one run.  I am feeling very motivated to keep going and possibly add in some extra workouts.  I am thinking that I might start Jillian Michaels' 30 day Shred again.  That video always kicks my butt and I love how I feel after. 

Woohoo!!! 178!!! 

I am 3 pounds closer to my goal.

Goodbye beach

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Lacking motivation

I am in need of some serious motivation.  This trip has just been so nice and relaxing that I still haven't gotten my running shoes out of the truck.  We have gone on walks everyday but I can't find it inside of me to go for a run.  And now we leave tomorrow.

I just don't know.

Sunday, August 5, 2012

Sweet vacation

Every second of this trip as been relaxing so far.  We didn't get in until late Friday night so we all slept in on Saturday which was amazing, even the baby slept in.  Then we walked down the beach to the pier and ate breakfast at Ruby's Diner.  On the way back the William and Jordan couldn't wait any longer and whole heartily ran into the ocean fully clothed.  Rexy is our cleaner, I wouldn't say she is clean but cleaner then the others, anyway, she did not like the idea of getting her clothes wet so she waited until we reached our condo and changed.  Which the condo is only a 5-10 minute walk from the pier, tells you how excited the kids were that they couldn't wait.  I think that we swam and played in the sand all day Saturday, it was wonderful.  This morning we headed to Costco to stock up for the rest of the trip.  I love Costco, I don't know what it is about that store but I LOVE going there.  And for some reason venturing to a Costco other then the one I normally go to is even more exciting.  We got salmon, trout, and a steak that were already seasoned to that we didn't have to worry about buying seasoning.  Then we grabbed a ton of fruits and veggies to have around to munch on.  I got all the ingredients for yummy smoothies. 

We are about to head out to the beach again for probably the entire afternoon.  Well, the big kids will be out the entire afternoon.  Jon and I have to take turns staying with the little ones and letting them get their naps in so they aren't super cranky. 

I wish that I could say that I have gotten up and gone running every morning so far but I can't, I haven't even gotten my tennis shoes out of the truck.  I am going to attempt to fit a run in this evening, I know, what a lame thing to say, attempt, like if our schedule is super busy here.

   Playing on the beach, you can see Jon and Jordan in the ocean.

Friday, August 3, 2012

California here we come

We are heading to the beach this weekend.  I am looking forward to it.  I love the ocean and the kids are so excited.  William is the only one who remembers ever going to the beach.  Jordan and Rexy both say that they do but there is no way they remember, the last time we went Jordan was two and Rexy was 2 months old.  That was a fun trip but I am looking forward to them being older this time, even though we will still have a baby.  We will be gone for five days and because we are a little crazy and didn't realize that school started so early this year, we get back the night before school starts.  It will definitely be a tiring start to school but oh well. 

Hopefully I will be able to keep up with my running schedule while on vacation.  Sunrise on the beach should make for a beautiful view.  We are planning on cooking for ourselves instead of eating out while there which should help me not gain extra weight.  Maybe I will be able to hold at 181 pounds again this week. 

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Wednesday: weigh in day

Well, I didn't gain any weight this week, but I didn't loose any either.  Still weighing in at 181 lbs.  I have been journaling my food and counting calories this week so hopefully next week might actually show some positive (negative) numbers. 

Slow and steady right?

I have had to slow my pace down in order to complete this weeks run schedule.  I feel like it is a bit extreme but when I tried to finish the set on Monday going at the 10 minute per mile ish pace I had been doing I wasn't able to complete it.  This morning I slowed the pace, slow and steady right?  It did the trick, maybe I will be able to up it a little bit on Friday.  Or should I just keep working at it at the slower pace?  I don't know which method is a better choice.  I guess any way I can complete the set is good. 

I am feeling very unmotivated lately.  I wish that I could see more results but I know I just need to keep going.  I am going to start counting calories again.  I don't eat horribly but I need to shape it up and if I am keeping a food journal and counting calories I usually eat a lot better.  Can't even lie to myself if I have to write it down where I can look back at it tomorrow.