Blogging

Wow

 

This whole blogging thing is so very intimidating. 

 

Following blogs, having followers

 

I guess I never thought abouot it when I started.

 

 I started it as a way to help keep myself accountable.  If I write something on the internet for everyone to see then I am more likely to do whatever it is that I set out to do.  Honestly, yes it would be nice if I could somehow magically make millions off a blog but who are we kdiding. 

 

This whole blogging community seems really nice but scary all at the same time, I feel like the new girl in high school.  I am completely insecure.  I need to get over it, 'cause come on, I know I'm cool and everyone is going to want to be my friend.  At least, I hope so.  =)

 

 

 



stupid cold & Wednesday: weigh in day

I have got a stupid cold.  I hate being sick.  I think that if you are a mother with small children you shouldn't be able to get sick.  It is just cruel.  Here I am feeling like crud and the kids of course feel fine.  How am I supposed to rest and get better when I still have four little ones who need me.  Seriously unfair. 

 

Ok, I am done whining. 

 

Today is Wednesday, weigh in day, but I am not weighing in.  I am taking a week to be sick.  I haven't felt good since Monday.  I went for a run Monday but didn't make it very far cause I just felt crummy.  I haven't made it since then.  I don't feel good.  I am hoping this week goes by quickly and I get back to feeling good.  My family and my house sure takes a hit when I am sick.  Ugh. 



Cinnamon rolls...

Why did I do it?  Why did I go to Costco hungry?  I know that is always a bad plan and yet I still went.  So what did we end up buying?  Cinnamon rolls, yummy, sticky cinnamon rolls!  They are amazing and I can't stop myself from eating them.  Does anyone else ever think if we eat them all in one day then at least they wont be around for you to mess up and eat again another day?  No, just me.  Great.  Well, I think that way, I don't know why but I do.  So what have I been eating pretty much all day today?  Yep, eating cinnamon rolls.  It makes me feel so beaten down, like I am failing.  But I can't stop myself, I love the way they taste.  I wish I was one of those girls who could just tell themselves, once on the lips forever on the hips.  Ugh.  

Not good

My brain won today. 

It happened again, that voice was telling me that I couldn't do it, I couldn't complete my 8 minute running set and I let myself fall for it.  Just for a little while but then I realized that I wasn't tired, well I was, but I was just as tired walking as I was running so why not run.  I made myself finish the distance that I would have completed in my 8 minute set even though the timer on my watch had gone off. 

I don't know why I fall for it, believe that little bit of doubt in my mind that I can't do it.  I can do it.  I can finish my sets.  I will do it.  I'm not going to say that I will never listen to the voice of doubt again, that I will always keep going, but I am going to try, try to squash my doubt and keep going.