My sister excepted a position as a law clerk in Phoenix today. I find myself sad but excited for her. And jealous, jealous of the change that their family is getting to go through. I don't know why but I have been craving change lately. We have a great life and everything is good right now but there is something inside me that is yearning for change. I can't explain it exactly. I can't even really understand it myself. I just feel unsettled, like there is something else for us. I have been praying about it a lot. I don't know. We have a nice house, it is completely torn apart still but slowly getting put back together, maybe I am just wanting a complete home, but I don't think so. I love our house and am excited to be transforming it ourselves. I would be sad to move. I love the kids school but find myself thinking maybe I should switch them to the one in our neighborhood, we could walk to school, save money on gas, but the kids school has a great community of Christians which is awesome in a public school. Plus the Spanish program they are in is great, they are learning so much and being bilingual is such an asset now a days. Our church is wonderful, I definitely feel like that is where God wants us right now.
I don't know, maybe it is just that I am jealous. But it feels so much deeper then that. I don't know, maybe God is preparing my heart for something. Maybe it will be something minuscule. But maybe not. Maybe there is some big change coming up.